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I feel blah today

I’m all out of sorts, and sometimes I feel like making a list to all of you about the things that don’t always work out for me. I get the feeling that some of you think I live in a world of roses and rainbows because I really don’t like to complain, and enjoy highlighting the good in life. But I do like to keep it real…My husband often wonders why I have such a driving need to share my life with people…I don’t know why I do, but I’m happy that you listen. I love the feedback I get from my Thoughtful Thursday posts, those are the kinds of conversations that I hope come from this blog. I like to hear if  you’ve done something I’ve done, have aspirations as I do, want to dress fancy, do fun things with your kids, etc. But I also know that sometimes those conversations are just in your head, and that still makes me happy to know.

I had a last minute urge to go to a late movie tonight, texted a few friends, and no one could make it. Bummer. I almost went alone, but really, I like to enjoy things like that with others.  I can’t imagine I’d enjoy it as much all on my own. I took my girls down the road to CVS to grab some milk so we’d have it for breakfast and grabbed this blue ice cream scoop…thinking it’d help me feel better on this blah afternoon.

I got home and thought….what on earth? I guess a $3 last minute purchase isn’t so bad.

I’m feeling claustrophobic with all of the piles of papers and artwork my kids are bringing  home, and it’s reminding me that I really do need to get a handle on my home organization. It ebbs and flows, right now it’s ebbing (if I’ve got that word figured out correctly).  I’m excited for our summer travels, but also need to do some major planning and prepping before, and that’s getting me overwhelmed as well!  Not to mention the birthday party I’ll be throwing the day before our vacation.

I’ve still been doing well excercising daily, but my sweet tooth has got the best of me lately. I’m trying so hard to keep it at bay, but I keep reminding myself (as I am with a few of my friends that I’m “mentoring” them through hcg now) that so much of what I eat is mental cravings and urges.  I’m still staying within my personal calorie limit, but wonder if that matters with treat excess. I’ve actually lost a pound or two recently, but the scale so fickle and goes back and forth over the course of a few days. I don’t mind so much, as I just don’t want it to go above a certain number.

I felt sad today because I’ve been supposed to be a “co” room mom for my son’s class all year, and at some point in the middle of the year, my partner decided to stop including me on the messages and planning, and I guess I got dropped without even knowing it. Makes me feel bad…did I do something wrong there? Did I not do enough? I know I often bite off more than I can chew sometimes, and every once in a while, something like that falls through the cracks.  Oh well, just 2 days left of school.

My boys were playfully wrestling and one got hurt, and the other got defensive that he was hurt at his hands, and then got mad that the other was mad because he didn’t mean to hurt him.  All I could think to say to the one who didn’t get hurt is “Have I not taught you proper social norms that if you hurt someone…even on accident, you don’t argue about what level of pain you did to them, you just apologize and wait it out til them feel better.”  Even though I’m against the rhetorical questions to kids like that. When they can’t rightly answer a question (rhetorical) it makes them feel dumb, incapable, lowers the self esteem.  I was just beside myself that he reacted that way. I’ve got a few things yet to teach my kids. Lifting their self esteem is high on my list.

And I have only listed about half of the things running through my head right now…

All I can do at the end of a “blah” evening (it was off and on all day, rarely is it a bad all around day) is recount the things that I did right. I cleaned my kitchen counters, played Dora Bingo with my girls, made it easy for my hubby and boys to go play disc golf with his brother after dinner, Made SUPER yummy bacon, & avocado grilled cheese sandwiches which even the kids loved (sans avocado), smiled, hugged and kissed each of my kids when they came home, had some spiritual enlightenment, took my daughter to a new park with friends, read my boys our chapter book that we all love.

Pics of “good things” throughout my day:

Walking my kids to school this morning…I will miss this next year…oldest going to middle school.

Bundled for the morning jog, at at the park. I just love this girl.

After school, eating popcycles while glued to the new Arthur show on PBS.

dinner

I’ve been reading Stephanie Nielsen’s book, and enjoying following her on insta-gram. She is truly inspirational. I’ve checked up in her blog from time to time over the past few years.  I even ran into her and we chatted at a cupcake shop in Prove about 11 months after her accident.

All in all, I feel blessed…with nothing major to stew about. Thanks for letting me vent…have you had something “blah” happen this week?

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  1. Jessima says:

    I love reading your blog. I love that you write about all different things. It’s great!! I have ‘blah’ days every now and then too. Don’t worry, your not alone ;)

    • Kristen Duke says:

      Thanks, Jessima, and it makes me happy to hear that the things I share are enjoyable to you;)

  2. Kristen..we all nedd some ‘blah’ in our life…so that we can really appreciate the great moments.

    I hat those ‘blah days’, the feeling, the lack of motivation,…but it happens for a reason.

    It’s good to know what you don’t like and try to avoid it :)

    PLUS…I don’t like being around people that ‘smile’ all day long…I never know when they are truly happy…

    • Kristen Duke says:

      Leire,
      I agree, the good days are that much sweeter after the blah days! And I agree, people that are too happy are hiding something…we all have something.

  3. Your posts are always fun and uplifting I was beginning to wonder if you ever had those “blah” kinda days. Reading your blog always leaves me with a smile…even when you’re feeling stressed out and just blah. Hope the sun is shinning in your corner because it’s a dreary day here in PA. Talk about feeling blah.

    • Kristen Duke says:

      Tracy,
      I’m so happy to hear my ramblings leave you with a smile;) Hearing that leaves ME with a smile! It is really sunny here!

  4. I love that you’re keeping it real. :)

    Blah…yep…my 17 year old niece was here for the weekend to do a 25 mile bike ride for the Brain Tumor Society and she’s gone after a really great weekend.

    • Kristen Duke says:

      Ellen, the blah feeling often does come after a really great weekend or trip! Glad you had fun;)

  5. Jacqueline says:

    We all have those days, I’m sure. I appreciate your honesty!

  6. I’m having a blah day too. Maybe I need a trip to CVS. ;-)

    Sounds like you did a whole lot of things right even in your blah day. My list of good things would be MUCH shorter today.
    ~Fringegirl

    • Kristen Duke says:

      I also didn’t list EVERYTHING that was making me feel that way…even days that we do things right, we can feel in a funk.

  7. Margaret says:

    Funny, I have been having one of those days too and was just sitting down to write about. Somehow getting it all out there makes a little better (at least for me). Hope tomorrow is a little better day!

    • Kristen Duke says:

      Getting it all out really DOES help me, I am a big fan of “venting” to someone who cares and feeling so much better after that!

  8. I remember when our boys were younger that same difficulty saying “I’m sorry” or “are you alright” etc, if they didn’t think it was their fault. It gradually comes – I think it is something in children’s natures that takes time and gentle reminders to help them react properly.

    • Kristen Duke says:

      Carol,
      Thanks for that perspective. Sometimes, it’s tough to think ahead that they will “get it” one day.

  9. Hope your day is better today. Sometimes I feel like blah days are worse than bad days. They’re not bad enough to cry and get it out of your system (well, most of the time), but they’re not that great either. Those sandwiches look super yummy! I definitely have been chicken and haven’t really cooked since the baby was born. Love you!

    • Kristen Duke says:

      Rach–the sandwiches are SUPER easy! And I always feel SO much better when I cry it out…

  10. caroline says:

    I loved this post! Totally relate! and just an fyi- (ahem) if you are ever in need of a late night movie buddy- call me! just sayin;)

  11. Our inner character is very much alike, Kristen.
    I have blah days too, definitely my share. But I choose to share the good, because that’s how I roll, and also because it’s uplifting to do so. But some people are mislead by that. They think everything’s so easy, and they get offended when I don’t have time for them because I’m running wild in all directions keeping up with my kids & family.
    I also have that urge to share.. and my husband also doesn’t understand it, but accepts it’s me, and he’s even my #1 blog reader. :)
    I strongly believe in reflecting.. it’s good. For me, it helps prioritize thoughts, make mental lists, and focus on positives – when you take time to note them, there are many, even on blah days. I enjoy your reflections!
    (by the way – that paper thing – I hear you.. my baby just graduated preschool & had kindergarten round-up, next year I’ll have five bringing home the papers & pictures & flyers & notices.. I love organization, but am still working on this one.)

    • Kristen Duke says:

      Thanks, Amanda! I wish I could say my hubby was my #1 reader…it’s a tough balance with sharing, but I do like to keep it real! Have fun with all of those papers!

  12. I’ve been super blah lately too and can’t find a real reason for it. I have so much I should be grateful for that I hate it when I’m feeling blah but I guess it is a normal part of life. I just worry that the blahs will turn into depression.

    Anyways, I just wanted to say I can relate to what you are saying and how you are feeling and hope things have gotten better for you over the weekend!